Fast Forward..Vrinda @15 “Happy Birthday Papah!”

Yesterday night while pondering over the surprise I can throw for my husband Anuj for his 32^nd Birthday today, I happen to “think forward in future”. I imagined a time 15 years from now, when Vrinda will be old enough to decide on her own what can she gift her father on his birthday. 

She and he both were asleep. It was around 12:30am when I got up from bed and started mock thinking like my little girl grown up big girl.

I was dead tired from the days’ work since I am getting my house painted. The whole place is in a mess and my mind was at strike! I picked up my craft kit and all things possible that could come in handy in making my little girl’s surprise for her daddy J. As she slumbered, I picked up my scissors and craft paper and began work. At first everything was apart but bit by bit it all started coming together in a beautiful piece of work. I smiled and worked. It was 1:30 am. I worked and smiled. It was 2 am. By the time I could no longer keep my eyes open I was almost done! Hurrah it was ready!                

 

Then I began setting up the table for Daddy dear with all the things that I had bought for him over a period of time for his birthday. They all seamlessly fell into the gift basket of Vrinda from future.

           

1.     First was a book  “The English Patient” – by Micheal Ondaatje

SUMMARY: With ravishing beauty and unsettling intelligence, Michael Ondaatje's Booker Prize-winning novel traces the intersection of four damaged lives in an Italian villa at the end of World War II. Hana, the exhausted nurse; the maimed thief, Caravaggio; the wary sapper, Kip: each is haunted by the riddle of the English patient, the nameless, burned man who lies in an upstairs room and whose memories of passion, betrayal, and rescue illuminate this book like flashes of heat lightning.

 

Anuj loves to read books and watch movies based on the times of World War I and II. So here was a perfect gift for him.  

 2.      Chocolates – This is going to be Vrinda’s first chocolate as well J

                                         

 3.      Flowers – Beautiful Orange Gerberas & Roses

 

4.      Perfume – Escape by Calvin Klein

                                                                                 

5.      Lastly a shirt which I bought for him some time back.

                                                                                                                                                                                       

All these small items made a big basket for Daddy. My Baby’s thoughtful hamper had put to shame the hamper from coffee with karan.         

 

Here’s my apple pie in the morning, right from bed, watching the surprised face of her papah. Her eyes lit up seeing him smile and laugh and thank his baby girl for such a lovely morning birthday present.        

                     

Aahaan…Papah did thank mumma for executing this story beautifully.

And the Princess is Born ...The unforgettable experience of Vrinda's birth!

Vrinda, born on 1^st November 2012, Thursday at 1:28 pm, was born at Anushree Hospital, Bhopal(M.P.). Born with her eyes wide open, she looked nothing less than a baby fairy from dream-land.    

                                                                                 I was in the last month of my third trimester. On 31 October my Gynecologist Dr. Meenakshi Patel(one of my dear friend’s mother) informed us that I needed to get operated urgently and it was imperative to perform a C-section the very next day. I wasn’t ready. Even though I had been waiting for a long time for this day. I still wasn’t ready. I guess somewhere you never are! But on the flipside the excitement of having my baby in my hands same time next day had no limits. The happiness was infinite.   

                                               We arranged for Anuj to take next morning’s flight from Mumbai to Bhopal and be with me at the time our world knocks at our door! And the time came. I was taken to OT and prepared for the operation. As I was succumbing to my anesthesia, I drifted into an unknown world. I closed my eyes and let go! I have always believed in god. And reading “Durga Chalisa” has always given me strength and hope. I so badly needed to be assured that everything will be alright with my baby, that I started chanting it while on the OT bed. On the one hand I could hear doctors chat about their regular knick knacks, on the other I could feel an invisible force holding me there, to keep faith and wait for our biggest happiness.

The moment I was reaching towards the end of Durga Chalisa, I could feel something being dragged out of me. It was unbelievable how my baby was taken out of me in a matter of seconds. Void and fulfillment struck me at the same time. A physical void of (me - her).  And the fulfillment of (her + me). What an irony. I felt light, very light. At the same time complete, to have her. Till then I had not known it was her. The doctor said “Pooja bitiya hui hai”, and that moment my heartbeat almost stopped. Stopped to smile.  Stopped to laugh.  Stopped to shed a tear of happiness. Stopped to believe, to feel, to thank the deepest thank of my life. The doctor was surprised to see a baby so awake at birth. She had a humble cry with eyes wide open and an expression of serenity on her face. As if she belonged here, in this world, always.                                                           

 

9 months of journey finally yielded its fruit. Vrinda, our princess was born. I smiled the biggest smile of my life, still in my anesthesia. I knew all will be alright. I took a deep breath and let it go once again drifting back in my sleep imagining the picture of Anuj holding her in my mind.

                                                                  On 1^st November 2012 my facebook status read the following:

“It’s a new beginning, a new morning, a new night and a brand new life!

With you entering our universe now, all will always be right.

As today we embark on a new journey, and for all our living times to come,
We will be on a roller coaster ride.
This journey will be fun, loving, exciting, colorful, beautiful, soulful and bright!

What marks we get in this exam does not matter,

What matters is what colors we fill in this new landscape of our life!
The innumerable moments that we will have with our bundle of joy,
With our honey bun fry, with the apple of our eye;
Will strengthen our love, sparkle our life and enlighten our soul forever! ”

You Own Me !

Sometimes its realization, sometimes its disbelief,

Sometimes its impatience, but most of the times its patience and relief.

I feel you own me solely, completely.

I know you, you know me. I treasure you and I know you‘ll treasure me forever as you do now,

When u open your eyes in the morning and call “mumma”..

When you look at things you want and call “mummaee”..

When you want to go out, you get to the shoe rack, pick up my slippers and call “mummaaaa baba”

And the calling goes on and on, day and night..”mumma..mummaaeeyyaa..mummeee..mummy”.

On her 1st B'day - 1st November 2013

I am blessed to be a part of you. And ever so more because you are a part of me.

It’s a feeling of loving and being loved, of caring and being cared for, wanting and being wanted, worshipping and being worshipped.

It’s as if you are on my mind all the time, and I am on yours. The eyes play hide and seek. Here you come, here you..blink blink…go away. And again it’s a comeback with the same sweet sound that fills me with love and life… “mummaaa”.                                                                                                                                                                                            

You own my mind, as I keep thinking about you.

You own my heart, as I keep praying for you.

You own my soul, as I keep living for you.

It’s a state of salvation, where nothing materialistic can bring me happiness of this kind that you give me.

Oh my little girl. My darling princess, you make me wonder, wonder all the time, be in awe, be in love, smile, laugh, cry too at times..no matter how angry I m at something, no matter how much of my patience have been tried by you, that one little “mumma” makes up for everything in this world beyond words beyond feelings beyond god.                                                                                                                                    

You Vrinda, you are my angel, my love, my life !!